February, 2010

Grief—The Lonely Walk

This past November I was painfully reminded just how lonely and emotionally numbing grief can be when you lose someone you have loved your entire life. Like any form of depression, words just do not seem to help and the ability to describe the pain is ineffective as well as too labor intensive to attempt.

Unlike some other forms of depression, the grief comes like ocean waves—sometimes gentle and almost sweet and often as huge swells that knock you off your feet.

We vacillate between not sleeping and not being able to wake up.  Sometimes we are ravenous and other times we cannot eat.   It just seems to be all or nothing.

I have found that anything that requires a great deal of creativity and concentration on my part is on the back burner.  Time alone to ponder is required and I am just not interested in the activities I usually love.

In time I know I will return to my usual routine and ‘old self’, but not exactly the same as before, which will be a good thing.  I know that when I hear someone has lost a loved one, I will realize the tremendous pain they may be going through.  I will give them space and time to heal.  I know their energy field, creativity and concentration will be temporarily disrupted but in time they will return and they will heal.  And I will ask their angels to guide them and help them.

 It is true “life will go on, so let’s move on”, yet for a time in throws of grief, we are often unsure of our footing and of the path.

To all of my friends and love ones who have supported me, I am so grateful!

I also wish to thank the earth for it’s healing trees and plants—myrrh, ginger, orange, peppermint, rosemary, eucalyptus, skullcap and passion flower—and  its healing, supportive energy.

Wishing you angels when you need them and sacred gifts from the earth which are always there for you.

Blessings,

Cheryl

Owner, Primal Hints Aromatherapy